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I feel bad for not keeping up with this blog, but I didn't miss not doing. A blogger should miss her blog like she would a confidante.

So I have been on a sleep and tv diet. I started with my Korean drama's last night. I caught up on "Big" and "I do, I do" then started watching "shut up flower boy band". As I was watching a lot of ads came up but there was one that I actually enjoyed and even looked forward to.

It was HP Beats' 2012 commercial. I was intrigued by the whole package- the visual, audio, the whole nine yards. But most of all, the music had me in a trance. So like all curious and resourceful people do, I googled.

I found out the name of thesong ang the artist. there had been others before who had the same query. As I listened to the song and other songs by the artist, I realized that I liked dubstep because all their songs sound like dubstep and I like all their songs. this is the song from the ad.


Back to my dramas. I found me a hottie. he goes by the name Lee Hyun Jae. He plays a brooding but calm drummer in "Shut up Flower Boy Band." I googled his behind the minute I saw the poster on Viki.com. His character is in love with their band girl who has unrequited feelings for another bandmember. This series was the first one where i was dead set on who should get the girl. But then he got killed off- just my luck.

Sadly, my day took a downwards spin. It started when I came home from hanging with a friend only to find out that mi madre had come home and practically fallen into her bed because of exhuastion. Now let me say, I feel like the exhuastion could have well been avioded if only she ate regular meals and did not go through her whole school day just to come home and tell me how she has not eaten all day. Inever really considered that she might be anorexic but after typing the previous sentence I feel I should reconsider, no? It really upsets me tht she insists on acting that way especially when she like me is anemic. she feels righteous telling me to take my meds but she can't eat some food? My day got even wore when i was the audience to an argument by which I learned of misfrtunes that befell my extende3d family and how the looked to my unstable mother for aid. Ergo, putting financial and emotional strain on her along with the physical strain sshe insists on exerting upon herself by not eat regularly.

the title of this posst is for the silverlining of my day: a hangout/maybe (extremely maybe) rendezvous  with a certian soccer hunk( who i havent seen i a long while and who may not be so hunky anymore). I amnervous but I DO NOT want to overthink it. I ave to be able to keep friends friends inmy head. Subconsciously, I feel like all guys thet befriend me= possible mate and thats wrong. Men and women are calpapble of being just friends and Iwant one guy to be just friends with.
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