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Overheated laptop

Hi, you
I feel, I think, I consider, I love, I hate, I hurt, I want comfort. But all of that stays on the inside. The doorway to the outside only allows for little to escape to the outside. I feel like a laptop that is running with obstructed air vents. I overheat but still no way for me to release the heat. My mouth seems so heavy. It's hard to to ask the other objects around me if they can help me. I don't want them to be moved from from their place of comfort. I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to be judged for having over heated in the first place. It's hard for the heat get out but it's do easy for it to come in. I know I'm burning up. Soon I'll combust. I'll be ashes. So I'm trying to seal the heat away and I have. I built up an incredibly thick layer of ice around my hard drive. I'm cold to the touch. The objects around me that have been around me since I got manufactured and shipped to this room get frost bitten. But then new objects are put into the room. They give me hope because I won't be too hurt if they are annoyed at me because I'm too weak to move myself so I can release heat. So I try not to spare them from the scorching heat that is my hard drive. But its still hard to bare it all out. Maybe it's because I don't know if I'll melt them all away if I do expose to the heat I keep inside of me. If that wee to happen then no one would know that I am overheating.... Should I just let the heat melt me away. After all my Norton antivirus did expire and then the viruses just seemed to come pouring in. I had backup antivirus but choice b is never as good as choice a. All sorts of viruse me despite me being on safe mode. Summer is just around the corner and the temperatures are rising. I will resign all control. I'll leave it in the hands administrator. I know all this can be corrected. I just need to make a beep or any sound do that he can turn to me. 1993 me. Scratched up me. Virus laden me. Overheated me. Then he'll move me so that I will be able to be free of the overwhelming heat. Then he could give me a new hard drive and renew the melted pieces of me.

Yours emotionally,

Tyb
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