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the childrens' keeper

        Today was fun. I was like a prison warden to these poor kids.They even started asking me if they could go to the bathroom or get a drink of water. At one point it got so quiet I wondered if i was alone inthe house and somehow hey had managed to escape to another persons house and declare refugee status. Just so you know I was just making srethe read a novel each liketheir guardian wanted. I just had to do it the authoritarian way because there were a few rebels in the group. But I guess i came down to hard on the rest. Even after I had declared break time they were still in prison mode. I was afraid I had broken their spirits past the point of repair. So I had to decare freedom to do as they wished. I can seriously say the power went to my head, I felt superior like their fates were mine to direct at least for a certian period of the day. And then giving them back their freedom felt like I was their saviour.
        After giving them back their freedom I played Wii with them, we danced competitively and I lost consecutively. I gave up and retired to the couch where I watched my Korean dramas: Big and I do, I do. I got my aunt interested in I do, I do. I should be a rep of the K-Wave phenomena.
 ....stuff happened (too lazy/sleepy to write) and now they sleep. cute little dumplings and not so little dumpling that are younger than me.
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