The Young Bubble

It seems more and more like social media platforms are unwilling to let their patrons products go. I wanted to deactivate my account and it was not straight forward which menu itms would lead me there. So like every other able minded averagely tech-savvy person, I searched the internet for how to deactivate facebook. The sites the search yielded were not helpful. even articles published as recently as Apr 2, 2019, 5:36 PM were now obsolete. Eventually I figured it out and in order to redirect my frustration here lies the most recent way to deactivate or delete your facebook account: Click the drop down arrow.                                                 Click settings                       Click "Your Facebook Information"     Click "Deactivation and Deletion" ...

I'm afraid it will be truly over but at the same time limbo is painful. Take a risk. Late is better than never.  Or lets make it a clean severance. It hurts to start being okay and then to see you. Maybe a couple of months. You want a net. No net. Just jump. Stop gathering info. Just jump. For somethings, gather info. For some things, take the info available and take a risk. Telling me you regret not doing X... what do you want me to say? What are you fishing for? "Aww really? I'll count this as X." "I wish you did X"  I  let you know that very same day and was met with "if you change your mind let me know"

Excuses you will always have with you, and you can use them any time you want. But you will not always have this opportunity. -me (inspired by Jesus Christ)

so i was the one to say the words, to put the ring back into your recieving hand. we were supposed to have become a happy married couple today but we became two disgruntled single people. I said I love you because I do and to talk to me if you needed to talk because I wanted you to tell me I could talk to you. You always thought that i had friends to talk to but i don't. their lives are so shiny and filled with light and to go tarnish it with my problems especially when I think I am the Problem is not feasible for me. I don't have a wonderful man anymore. I pray that he continues to find himself and grow to have a beautiful family that ill probably be envious of and a nice compassionate wife. I don't know what to do with myself. Usually people  who break up with people have somewhere to go, something to focus on. I feel like a dunce at work a pretender and i'll soon be found out and kicked out. I feel like my relationships with people all over are so shallow. ...

The world isn't going to care that you aren't there anymore. The shadows will welcome your presence the seams of reality will easily tear allowing thorns to embrace unclothed skin. Your thoughts will take you further into a dooms-day future than anytime machine ever could. Your heart will burn and freeze and thaw. From your eyes will flow endless rivers and grow untamable flames. You recon neither fame nor infamy by turning in, being a one dimensional point, building up walls that reach for extraterrestrial life, digging holes past China and into another dimension, cocooning yourself with blankets as wide as space and time... You will be unmissed. What could be missed?  Fractions of a shattered shoddily mirrored glass? A magnet that dies in second? A battery unable of providing power? Holey umbrellas? shambled roofs? Unsteady rotted floorboards? Don't bother trying to be something to someone somehow. It's too late, they'll see right through you. You will see th...

I mean what is this former colony that was supposed to be land of the free and brave?  Well, the darkest-minded citizens of this neo neotinized USA are becoming free and brave. To Incels: It is precisely because you do not think another human being with different morphology has the right to protect their bodies from or share it however they please that you will remain the ones bodies are protected from. READ IT AND WEEP: https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/local/wp/2018/06/01/hes-pro-incest-pedophilia-and-rape-hes-also-running-for-congress-from-his-parents-house/?utm_term=.6926ccd70de0

I was one of those people who jumped on the product even when it was still in the funding stage. I missed the deadline to actually buy it while I was on Kickstarter but I bought it  almost immediately after.  And I've had it since 2016 until now and I mean I've never really had charging problems because I never left my phone without charge for too long and so recently I've just been noticing ZUS's flaws because I haven't been charging my phone at home ave office as often as I usually did. When I need ZUS USB car charger  to charge my phobe while I'm driving, the ZUS charger does so very slowly.  I could go get a free giveaway  or dollar charger from any fair or conference I attend  and it would charge faster than the ZUS USB car charger.  Many people have written in my car and used my ZUS charger to charge their phones and they all complained as to how slowly it charge their phones. I always took their complains with a grain of salt; too many grains o...

I always thought that my heart would get broken by a boy. I have had some really embarrassing boy stories, like they never even became my boy. But my biggest heartbreak was from my friends. Or people I thought were my friends. But then again maybe I only looked at things from my perspective.  (But it was for the best I have a wonderful man who plans on marrying me) TYB

Stopped by a dam. Restrained by will Disdained by societal norms A flowing river shows weakness or inability of the land to keep the weather in check. Rain was restricted to the darkest and longest of nights, less the whole earth know of it by the moistened soil of the land. The plants are supposed to be well groomed, green in color and producing the juiciest and most flavorful of fruit that are plump with nutrition. But no waterworks, no flowing, no crying. But then if you just smile the pain away your fruit look falsely plump.  ha hahahahahah hahahaha I know i make it hard to do,  But stay bubbly bubblies! -The young bubble

She, somber souled seductive siren Luring lustful lads loitering local lands Haltingly healing her hurt heart Was weary without... By TYB

The world isn't going to care that you aren't there anymore. The shadows will welcome your presence the seams rip easily allowing thorns to embrace unclothed skin. Your thoughts will take you further into a dooms day future than anytime machine ever could. Your heart will burn and freeze and thaw. From your eyes will flow endless rivers and grow untamable flames. You recon neither fame nor infamy by turning in, being a one dimensional point, building up walls that reach for extraterrestrial life, digging holes past China and into another dimension, cocooning yourself with blankets as wide as space or time... You will be unmissed. What could be missed?  Fractions of a shattered shoddily mirrored glass? A magnet that dies in second? A battery unable of providing power? Holey umbrellas? shambled roofs? Unsteady rotted floorboards? Don't bother trying to be something to someone somehow. Its too late, they'll see right through you. You will see through yourself reflecte...

So I have felt jealous about your platonic relationships. But I have also felt jealous about you and the opposite gender. I wager that a sexual dalliance  would have triggered more jealousy. Glad twas not the case. I think it might be important to say that me trying to trigger jealousy was not premeditated. I was calling you as I walked upstairs to my home. Thus, I was smiling in anticipation of you picking up. When I walked into my house and my mom and her manfriend thought the smile was intended for them. So as not to disappoint I didn't respond even when you picked up.  Your constant "Hello?"s  still pulling at the ends of my mouth. When I was able to respond my first thought was to make a joke. Its only after i finished and heard the angry tone in your statement aboutit not being funny that the jealousy thing came to mind. But perhaps it isn't ungrounded that I did that. I really like you. MOF I love you. I also trust you. But it doesn't escape me that yo...

If in a dark and lonesome place a heart falls to the ground shattering into a million pieces, does anyone hear it? -TYB

I stand a hollow carcass of a girl I once thought myself to be. self sufficient and drive my insides teem with unending waves of darkness. light  has no chance here in this shadow land for the shadows have engulfed the thing itself there remains nothing to shed light upon the shade takes pleasure in imbibing any light that dares to come for the girl I once knew the girl I so desire to be the girl who is gone that girl has become the shadow and the shadows become her the only end to this ...  a darker shadow enveloping the entire existence. Then, somewhere in time and space that girl can, once more, be...; I know I make it hard to do but,... Stay bubbly! TYB

To those nights when night sheds light on the cavity within you... When you realize the hours past are hours too far gone to be recollected; never to be caught; there will be no recycling of then for now... When your brain knows which way to go. And serendipitously, so does your heart but the "how?" purrs cooingly masking the crouching tiger hidden by a fog of uncertainties... When tears form and dissipate at equilibrium because you cause tears and cry and accuse you of being the cage that holds you captive and the captor has no right to let saltwater down this face... When you ache at the fact of tomorrow night being one of those nights because yesterday too was one of those nights. I know I make it hard to do but,... Stay bubbly! TYB

Hey bubbles, This movie brought me to tears several times. I think that this should be aired in middle schools everywhere. And Lord God will you give me the wisdom to discern if any of my children neices or nephews, or cousins are facing  such trials in any aspect of their lives. I am twenty something years old and I could relate to these characters. The being bullied though not to that extent. THANK GOD. For if it was so i would not be here writing anything. The feeling of having no where to turn to even if to the onlooker there were so many routes that could have been taken. I especially liked that the bully  was also humanized and not made out to be the villain always but the broken person that all people are. And again that feeling of having no where to turn yet turning out frustrations on the ones who care; Something most people still do as adults. But thats for another time when I am ready to turn down that topic. This was a story that does how sad both roles really ...

Hey bubblies. Fangirling is such a rush of adrenaline. When your "bias" appears somewhere or is recorded doing something cool or what on the ever; uber "kyaaaa" or other girly excited sound (p.s. I have actually "kyaaaaa!"ed while fangirling, lol)  Its all cool and dandy till it passes a line. That line is crossed when we follow them after spotting with a in hand pointed them recording what we aren't sure they would have liked publicized. Its like paparazzi only with guerrilla tactics. Everybody could whip out a camera, kindly ask for a signature or picture or and follow you around without your say so. Yeah, nothing bad is said. In fact, a lot of [idol]ization goes on (didja catch the pun? huhuhuhu).  But still, being filmed when you didn't intend on it can be stressful. So lets be fan-persons (boys and girls) who are respectful of the other person's feelings, bias or otherwise. Let's not trigger their fight or flight mechanisms,...

WHY Why why Do I feel like if I do this I'll hurt this one or do that and hurt that one and let it be so that one over there can feel like I take their advise to heart. what about what I like. what about what i feel. can i have it my way? is the only way i can have it my way if I do it myself? I've always never tried, never put effort into it because I knew if I did this is what I'd get. And it feels so damned aggravating and painful to be right. Yes, thank you for your effort. I asked for something simple but you thought this would be best. After seeing best I asked that it be scaled down to better, What I felt comfortable walking around in. But no I am ungrateful. I do not acknowledge effort. I chose these. THESE are the two things I have found and think would look good on me. "NO" my choices are torn to shreds. "no no too this... Not that, no... not... its nice, but... no... no... no no no. I know I make it hard to do but,... Stay bu...

Dealing, its hard, when someone you love passes away. Other than the loss of a life loved, I am most displeased with how everyone expects those who loved a life lost to be walking representations of hardship, pain and depression. Dealing comes in all shapes and sizes. Its not always the one who cries a river that hurts the most and its not always the one who can't shed a tear who wished death upon them. This just goes to say that reactions to everything run the whole gamut, death included. When I lost my father I left the hospital room where his uninhabited body lay and walked around the hospital. To be honest I was waiting till the last minute praying my Daddy would be the twenty first century Lazarus.  TYB

So I have started watching Oh My Venus [even though I definitely shouldn't be anywhere near a drama right now]. And let me tell you it is the shiznits. First lil miss Shin Min-Ah up in this shindig. Then add a buff of So Ji-Sup. Lets not forget some onscreen chemistry... and you just made the best pretty buff drama I'm going to not only enjoy the antics of this drama, but I will also use Joo-Eun's transformation as motivation for my transformation. Along with my thoughts on I will track my waist and thigh measurements, face size and weight here on a weekly basis. For the face size, I'll just take a selfie everyday; not sharing those. Sorry, not sorry,  Date  Waist, thigh measurents  Weight (lb, Kg)  11/26/15: Today is turkey day...  148, 68 12/02/15 First kiss!! 캬ㅏㅏ!!!! 144.5, 67.8 TYB