The Young Bubble

I talked to my yeo dongsaeng today. She's fun. My male dongsaengs are computer nerds. My noonas are completely in googoo gaga mode. Talking to them makes me feel like I'm missing something in my life. My eomma isn't so pleasant to be around. We aren't on good terms but I'm working on it. My halmeoni is a bit blank. She stares off into space sometimes. It's even weirder when she stares at me continuously. But that's family. The below picture is of my blood dongsaeng sleeping in the fetal position. He's cute when he's not being annoying. I want to turn him into a ladies man. Lol! But first, I want him to take the SAT!

I'm like a flower in the Sahara Hard in harsh conditions I can't be soft when conditions are so hard The winds would break me I keep to myself in dry conditions I can't open up when conditions are so arid The sun would evaporate me Not to speak of the thirsty animals that lurk about looking for any source of water They would suck me dry and use me to salve their blisters But I am hard and tightly closed They won't suspect that I hold water They won't take advantage of me I'm not saying I prefer to be hard and closed If spring where to visit the Sahara, I would bloom soft open flowers and allow myself to away with the gentle winds while I absorbed the suns adoring rays of light I am waiting for the spring

Hi, you I feel, I think, I consider, I love, I hate, I hurt, I want comfort. But all of that stays on the inside. The doorway to the outside only allows for little to escape to the outside. I feel like a laptop that is running with obstructed air vents. I overheat but still no way for me to release the heat. My mouth seems so heavy. It's hard to to ask the other objects around me if they can help me. I don't want them to be moved from from their place of comfort. I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to be judged for having over heated in the first place. It's hard for the heat get out but it's do easy for it to come in. I know I'm burning up. Soon I'll combust. I'll be ashes. So I'm trying to seal the heat away and I have. I built up an incredibly thick layer of ice around my hard drive. I'm cold to the touch. The objects around me that have been around me since I got manufactured and shipped to this room get frost bitten. But then new ...

I cant  go into story mode. I'm just going to give it to you straight. So on Thursday I went by my university to enroll onto a tuition payment plan, and then it as it turns out I didn't have to! The government had me completely covered. No cent of  mine or my family's is going toward my tuition this year. Of course there's still the issue of book but i'm not gonna sweat it. Then later on that I went to my friends's house for the first time and hung out with them. together we made dumplings which were not so tasty at the beginning but got there eventually. On Saturday, I went to Agape Ministries headquarters in Elkridge, Maryland and worked on an art install. It was pretty cool, sadly I have not a picture to show you. I do not know why it did not occur to me to take a picture! But the whole day was so nice(overall)! I tried the Magnum vanilla ice cream which was nothing short of  scintillating. Sunday started off not so hot. When I told my...

Hi, I am really down trodden right now. Every time I come home from Mommy Pam and enter my room, I feel like a big mosquito is on my back sucking all my blood away. Sometimes I just close the door and walk away and forget that it looks that way. I've been doing that for quite a while. And it seems to work but deep down I know the mosquito is still sucking my blood. And soon the mosquito will drain me and then I'll clean up all the puddles and dirty bodies of water that attract and breed the mosquitoes. But then, my fellow in habitants won't watch their habits and they'll leave containers about and rain will fall and they won't think to use the water right away or get rid of the standing water. The will leave it and leave it and walk by it everyday. Even though I have instructed them and asked them to please not leave water standing in the open for more than a day because the mosquitoes will use it as their breeding ground. I have shown them by example what a mosqui...

The manga is good couldn't put it down. Finishing volume 13 today! Next vol, where are you?!!!

I want to do some 10:10 Red Sun on somebody like KKJ did on Da Ran Yours wishfully - T.Y.B

I'm in Odenton again! And I am so apprehensive about Soccer Hunk. I need to breathe and be confident. I kinda asked him out and he didn't reply to the text so I'm pretending I never sent any such texts such as "(day of the week)?" after asking him if he wanted to listen kpop for the first time. I need to just cheel.

        I am going to start a business selling the things I create. People have really been complementing the bracelets I've been making.  I see  the things  online, even in some stores, and some expensive brands and I cannot help but feel I could make those things myself! So why not! and if I can get some revenue along the way, so be it! I am going to get one of my tech savvy friends to make my logo for me. I already have it,I just need someone to do it on Adobe Photoshop. I'll probably end up doing it myself though. I kinda worked with Adobe before. I just want a more skilled hand, you know.         Remember how I said there was promise of a...<3? Well, I went to grab a bite and was really nervous and shiz cause it was really the first time I'd gone somewhere alone with a guy my age who I was actually attracted to somehow. He had changed in the right ways. I mean physically (cause its not like I can deduce mental and ide...

I would say I love him but I want to reserve such a word for things that I hold extremely dear or thing less transient. I really really like him because of his looks. I will admit my superficiality; I'm not afraid to say a few of my crushes were based on looks alone. The topic of crushes makes me wince. :/ So I really really like Hyun Jae, but I can't help but say he has only a few faces. I've been looking for a picture of him to replace the one of G-Dragon as my screensaver and the pictures of him all look the same. Its like he keeps playing it safe and is afraid to change. (I feel like a judge from ANTM.) I mean the pictures are all beautiful, but they don't really differ in facial emotions. It was really hard picking between which picture to use because they all look the same. Is he new to the K-wave scene? Is that why his pictures are not diversified? I saved a lot to my phone. And then by process of elimination I chose the funnest face he'd mad...

Today was phosphodiESTHER bond's birthday! We prayed for her. And she was presented with Pokemon-ball looking cupcakes. She was also gifted with a gray drawing of a Boys Over Flowers character. And then we went to tutti frutti's for froyo! It was fun. I like today. P.s. I might go on a business venture with a partner but I feel there might be speed bumps ahead regarding the splitting of revenue.

Hey! I feel bad for not keeping up with this blog, but I didn't miss not doing. A blogger should miss her blog like she would a confidante. So I have been on a sleep and tv diet. I started with my Korean drama's last night. I caught up on "Big" and "I do, I do" then started watching "shut up flower boy band". As I was watching a lot of ads came up but there was one that I actually enjoyed and even looked forward to. It was HP Beats' 2012 commercial. I was intrigued by the whole package- the visual, audio, the whole nine yards. But most of all, the music had me in a trance. So like all curious and resourceful people do, I googled. I found out the name of thesong ang the artist. there had been others before who had the same query. As I listened to the song and other songs by the artist, I realized that I liked dubstep because all their songs sound like dubstep and I like all their songs. this is the song from the ad. Back to ...

Lead me with strong hands. Stand up when I can't. Don't leave me hungry for love chasing things that I could give up. Show me there is a way, that I can be yours forever. This is part of a Christian song that plays on WGTS a lot. If you google the first sentence you can find the son. I changed a few things after that.

I just watched it. Emma Roberts was something else!

        Today was fun. I was like a prison warden to these poor kids.They even started asking me if they could go to the bathroom or get a drink of water. At one point it got so quiet I wondered if i was alone inthe house and somehow hey had managed to escape to another persons house and declare refugee status. Just so you know I was just making srethe read a novel each liketheir guardian wanted. I just had to do it the authoritarian way because there were a few rebels in the group. But I guess i came down to hard on the rest. Even after I had declared break time they were still in prison mode. I was afraid I had broken their spirits past the point of repair. So I had to decare freedom to do as they wished. I can seriously say the power went to my head, I felt superior like their fates were mine to direct at least for a certian period of the day. And then giving them back their freedom felt like I was their saviour. ...

Cop lights, flash lights, spot lights Strobe lights, street lights (All of the lights, all of the lights)         Well, some of the lights are on. Like cop lights. They never go off. If they did, I think no one would be safe outside their houses.         So, I left my Aunt's house on thursday because I had to attend Agape summer training. The meeting went well. It was basically the highlight of my coming home to le 'belt. On Friday, I went to an allnight prayer vigil that my church was  holding. About one third of the way throught the time we were supposed to be there, the lights flickered and then went, off. I knew that the service would not meet an arubt end when tablet and phone screens shone like holy grails into the pitch black room accompanied by the continued singing of my fellow church goers.         When church was over, my mind quickly went to where I'd be la...