I'll be walking this May. Across a stage where my graduate adviser will hood me in recognition of my earning a PhD in plant science. I'm happy to be finished. and at the same time lost. I don't like how I finished. My defense presentation is not something I am proud of. I wasn't prepared because I had only fully practiced once! I had several technical issues happen, I did not have food for the audience or my committee. I had intended to record it but I am happy that there is no evidence of it. (But maybe seeing it I might think I wasn't that horrible.) I am scared to even discuss it with my advisor because I already know i was shit. My son is very cute but I think it would have been best for him to be at a separate location. I am failing at home life and at research/academia or job application. I feel as though I am unwanted by Jim. I think i am failing to communicate well at all I think i should have run that email to IBBR HR by him first before sending it. It mi...
Expanding