Skip to main content

Posts

Showing posts from 2018

my shattered heart

so i was the one to say the words, to put the ring back into your recieving hand. we were supposed to have become a happy married couple today but we became two disgruntled single people. I said I love you because I do and to talk to me if you needed to talk because I wanted you to tell me I could talk to you. You always thought that i had friends to talk to but i don't. their lives are so shiny and filled with light and to go tarnish it with my problems especially when I think I am the Problem is not feasible for me. I don't have a wonderful man anymore. I pray that he continues to find himself and grow to have a beautiful family that ill probably be envious of and a nice compassionate wife. I don't know what to do with myself. Usually people  who break up with people have somewhere to go, something to focus on. I feel like a dunce at work a pretender and i'll soon be found out and kicked out. I feel like my relationships with people all over are so shallow.

So I want to be a recluse. Again

The world isn't going to care that you aren't there anymore. The shadows will welcome your presence the seams of reality will easily tear allowing thorns to embrace unclothed skin. Your thoughts will take you further into a dooms-day future than anytime machine ever could. Your heart will burn and freeze and thaw. From your eyes will flow endless rivers and grow untamable flames. You recon neither fame nor infamy by turning in, being a one dimensional point, building up walls that reach for extraterrestrial life, digging holes past China and into another dimension, cocooning yourself with blankets as wide as space and time... You will be unmissed. What could be missed?  Fractions of a shattered shoddily mirrored glass? A magnet that dies in second? A battery unable of providing power? Holey umbrellas? shambled roofs? Unsteady rotted floorboards? Don't bother trying to be something to someone somehow. It's too late, they'll see right through you. You will see th

What is the world coming to?

I mean what is this former colony that was supposed to be land of the free and brave?  Well, the darkest-minded citizens of this neo neotinized USA are becoming free and brave. To Incels: It is precisely because you do not think another human being with different morphology has the right to protect their bodies from or share it however they please that you will remain the ones bodies are protected from. READ IT AND WEEP: https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/local/wp/2018/06/01/hes-pro-incest-pedophilia-and-rape-hes-also-running-for-congress-from-his-parents-house/?utm_term=.6926ccd70de0

nonda's Zus smart USB car charger is a fail

I was one of those people who jumped on the product even when it was still in the funding stage. I missed the deadline to actually buy it while I was on Kickstarter but I bought it  almost immediately after.  And I've had it since 2016 until now and I mean I've never really had charging problems because I never left my phone without charge for too long and so recently I've just been noticing ZUS's flaws because I haven't been charging my phone at home ave office as often as I usually did. When I need ZUS USB car charger  to charge my phobe while I'm driving, the ZUS charger does so very slowly.  I could go get a free giveaway  or dollar charger from any fair or conference I attend  and it would charge faster than the ZUS USB car charger.  Many people have written in my car and used my ZUS charger to charge their phones and they all complained as to how slowly it charge their phones. I always took their complains with a grain of salt; too many grains of salt.

broken heart

I always thought that my heart would get broken by a boy. I have had some really embarrassing boy stories, like they never even became my boy. But my biggest heartbreak was from my friends. Or people I thought were my friends. But then again maybe I only looked at things from my perspective.  (But it was for the best I have a wonderful man who plans on marrying me) TYB

No Emancipated Rivers Here

Stopped by a dam. Restrained by will Disdained by societal norms A flowing river shows weakness or inability of the land to keep the weather in check. Rain was restricted to the darkest and longest of nights, less the whole earth know of it by the moistened soil of the land. The plants are supposed to be well groomed, green in color and producing the juiciest and most flavorful of fruit that are plump with nutrition. But no waterworks, no flowing, no crying. But then if you just smile the pain away your fruit look falsely plump.  ha hahahahahah hahahaha I know i make it hard to do,  But stay bubbly bubblies! -The young bubble

So I want to recluse: What it's like to be a depressed recluse.

The world isn't going to care that you aren't there anymore. The shadows will welcome your presence the seams rip easily allowing thorns to embrace unclothed skin. Your thoughts will take you further into a dooms day future than anytime machine ever could. Your heart will burn and freeze and thaw. From your eyes will flow endless rivers and grow untamable flames. You recon neither fame nor infamy by turning in, being a one dimensional point, building up walls that reach for extraterrestrial life, digging holes past China and into another dimension, cocooning yourself with blankets as wide as space or time... You will be unmissed. What could be missed?  Fractions of a shattered shoddily mirrored glass? A magnet that dies in second? A battery unable of providing power? Holey umbrellas? shambled roofs? Unsteady rotted floorboards? Don't bother trying to be something to someone somehow. Its too late, they'll see right through you. You will see through yourself reflecte