The Young Bubble

Hey bubblies! I give so much advice that I don't take. Take today for instance: I arrive at 한글날 around the time its ending. I tell people to make friends but I do not. Its so sad because I could technically have lots of Korean acquaintances. But I keep thinking I do not want to come off as an infatuated person, or a korea-boo as its now called. Especially guy Koreans. Because I am biased towards Korean guys. Its not that I'll fall head over hills in love with them but just that I'll be physically attracted to them. And i hate it when my feelings and emotions are betrayed before I wish for them to be. And then with girls its hard to approach those that are already all cliquey,Korean or otherwise. Girls are scary. I feel as if after our interaction ill be the butt of their jokes forever and ever.  And finally maybe my interest is an infatuation and I don't want to feed it. Or maybe I'm just afraid of rejection and I want to aviod rejection by not asking in the f...

The mascot of my school has a shell. I have shells. I've met a great group of people who are wholly welcoming and seem genuinely interested in me as a person. I still have my foggy passive view on life and my shells are still weighing me down. I want to she'd them and get to know these people whom by Gods grace have come to surround me; I want to get to know everybody that surround me. I want to be genuinely interested and remember things about them and be free of heart with them but I always feel as if I am walking on egg shells. But later on when not in situ I realize that there were no egg shells, it was just my foggy view which caused me to refrain from talking. I want to shed the shells. No more tucking myself away. Yours willfully, TYB